bonniejane

I haven't cried so hard since the first time that I saw Extreme Home Makeover - L-O-V-I-N-G shar jackson. The dude with the two kids who's wife left him - oh em gee. SO SAD.

I'm a lil sad that I missed Two and a Half Men tonight because I think I am totally in love with that lil chunky kid. He always has the funniest lines.

ps. I don't really remember writing the journal before this one. Which is kinda funny but also a lil sad. I just haven't been sleepin so much.

i was so mad about something like thirty seconds ago ... and now I can't remember what it is ... ughhhh

it was soo good, whateves. my hair looks amazing so I guess there's really nothing to be too upset about.

i hope you guys get to see fireworks this weekend. i get too! and I'm goin to ride horses tomorrow.

and if you want to hire me to dj your bar mitzpha I can do if for you. I know I spelled that wrong.
 

I love toby ziegler more then anything else, ever. I'm scared of my love for toby.



heart me.

bonnie jane.

Saturdays for me have always been a sacred thing. This is when I fully get into reflecting on what is going down in my life and what is coming up. I clean my room. I listen to my favorite songs. I write lists for everything in my life. I've decided that I am also going to now use Saturdays to document the things that have truly inspired and lifted me the week before. Now, something you may not know about me is that I tend to find inspiration in the oddest places. And I fall in  love with things and people and ideas IMMEDIATELY. I've been known to tell people that I am obsessed with them upon shaking hands. I'm not sure where it comes from, but I'm definitely an all or nothing, head over heels, total romantic and completely passionate person. With that - here's my first installment of my weekly recommendations.

1.Russell Simmons, Do You!
Ok - So I haven't even finished reading this book and I've already texted about a dozen people and told them to pick this up right away. Russell Simmons has been the main inspiration for my career since I was in the 10th grade. When I think of the impact he has made on our culture it humbles me to no end. I am in awe of the way he speaks his mind, demands nothing but the best of the people he surrounds himself with and himself, can admit his weakenesses and his over all dedication to making our planet a better one. I honestly don't think there would be a Kanye or a Jay or a Lil Wayne if it wasn't for this man, and I just would never want to live in a world where those men's music wasn't in my life. Sayin.

2. Woody Allen

I watched a few of his movies this week after Lizy told this hilarious story that involved an Annie Hall reference. I'm always attracted to awkward people, I just feel like if I were born in Brooklyn 30 or 40 years earlier I definitely would have hung out with this guy at some point. He's definitely a lil pervy and weird, but some of my favorite people in the world are too. And it's kinda amazing how he puts it all out there.

3. Friday Night Lights

This is TV on another level. Something truly embarrassing for me to admit to is that I have become slightly weird over high school football. It started off with Two A Days where I was totally in love with Alex, and thought about ways to maybe go down to Albama and try and get to know him a lil.
But this show has put more over the top. There is something really sexy about a person who is passionate about ANYTHING. There are just those people that are so totally moved and excited and driven and STOKED about something that when they talk about it they give off this energy that could keep you warm at night if you are paying attention. This show is full of those speeches that make you want to go out and change the world, or at the very least play your hardest to win the game. To play with heart. And holy eff, Tim Riggens. There are no words. (I'm kinda bummed cause in this season he's a senior so if the show gets picked up again he won't be on again. Maybe he'll return as a coach or something though.) If you hit that link though you can watch the whole season for free. That's kinda amazing.

Another show with those amazing speeches that make you want to change the world is The West Wing. Super amazing show. Both shows have writing and casts that are definitely beyond anything I thought TV was capable of. I really hope that Studio 60 comes back soon. I miss Aaron Sorkin being a part of my life.

4. Sunshine.
I just love it. Can't get enough of it. So much so that I am ending the recommendations here so I can go for a nice long run.


I'd love to hear feedback and know what is making everyone else stoked out there. Hit me up.


Word is bond,

Bonnie Jane

I’ve been falling in love every day, it’s kinda amazing. Here’s a list of what I’m in love with at 734pm on Wednesday, April 11th, 2007.

Eurostile font – it’s the only font I can type in. It’s that deep.

The Snake The Cross The Crown – Cotton Teeth. God damn, this very well may be the only thing I listen to all summer. It kinda makes me cry, but I sing and dance too. I’ve been accused of over-hyping things and this is definitely the album I’m going to be going off about until the new Armor record is finished.

Sunshine on my face makes me happy. The more I’m in the sun and running around and stuff, the happier I tend to get.

My hood. It rules, I can walk to everything I need, including mind numbing margaritas and Dodger Stadium.

(speaking of) Baseball Season – I’m going to games all over the country this spring/summer.

All the amazing flavors of Orbitz gum available – raspberry mint has changed my life!!!

Dashing Diva nail salon – all my fears of getting other people cooties from getting a pedicure are gone – this place is so legit that I can’t even stand it.

Polaroid pictures – I’ll have to start scanning some of my new favorite pictures to throw up here.

Hanging out with friends from junior high

Having CRAZY ass dreams

My bestie Jules coming to visit me next weekend.

My buddy Keith coming out in May.

Friday Night Lights – holy hell, can Tim Riggins please be the father of my children?! Obviously I’m so lame that I go for the alcoholic emotionally unavailable bad boy, I’m really scared that I will never get over my Dylan  McKay complex.

Watching TV shows on the internet – fuck it, I’ll watch what I want when I want

The $50 bottle of lotion I bought at the tanning salon. At first my stomach churned thinking about how dumb it was to spend so much money on lotion – but god damn, my tan is FIERCE and it makes me smell better then anything else on earth.


I’m pretty sure I could keep writing this list for forever and ever, but I’m gonna cut myself off now. I hope all of you are falling in love every day, it’s really the only way to live. Sometimes you get your heart broken, but the sweet ain’t as sweet without the bitter baby.

I don’t normally feel the need to brag about how long I’ve been into a band for … but today I was reading Chris Conley’s blog and realized that I’ve been swooning over this boy for almost a decade. This boy, his songs and awkward voice. You always hear people talking about the soundtrack of their lives – how certain songs bring them back to pivotal moments in their youth. It’s why your mom gets all swoony over the beach boys or whatever your mom gets swoony over – my mom loves neil young.

Anyway – I love Saves the Day probably more then any other band I have ever loved. I use to think it was At the Drive In – but I dunno – I listened to a bunch of acoustic Saves the Day songs today and pretty much felt summer fall around me and could smell what it was like to go out and t.p people’s houses in the summer or drive cross country and a million other feelings. I remember when I bought a brand new car and the first cd I listened to was Through Being Cool. That shit sticks with you.

Anyway – if you like Saves the Day you should check this site out  -

http://web.mac.com/savesthedaymusic/iWeb/Saves%20The%20Day/Welcome.html

If you haven’t even listened to Saves the Day – you prolly should.

Hearts,

Bonnie Jane

so let me get this straight....

george has hooked up with meredith and izzy and obviously callie and that nurse

izzy has hooked up with george and alex, not to mention denny

meredith has been with george and mcdreamy

christina has only been with burke, and that teache that showed up

addison with mcdreamy, mcsteamy and ALMOST karev

there's a whole lot of sex goin on in this hospital - that's all i can say.

i have a new obsession - the west wing. i am so obsessed that i am actually considering going to law school right now.

im also now into brothers and sisters. i think mostly cause it has that dude from west wing in it.

this week has been mega rad...

firstly... my trip up the coastline was MEGA rad. hearst castle was awesome, i went on some wine tastings, i ate some food at a spot on the beach and then fell asleep by 730pm! no lies. it was a perfect day.

then last sunday was spent in this crazy loft watching armor getting photographed. then we scurried to my friend randy's to watch the last quarter of the big game and then hit up this spot Pho to eat dinner. i've taken several pictures of eating at pho. we heart that place.

monday... i cant really remember. i definitely went to pho again though.

tuesday... saw some band play on the top of some building. got to see some faces ive missed a lot.

wednesday... i have no idea. this week is getting a bit mushy in my mind.

yesterday i felt weird all day. i went running in the morning and there is this HUGE flight of stairs that goes up a mountain that ive been thinking about running up - so i give it a shot and i pretty much want to puke everywhere. later on i was driving to find this denim factory and i totes almost black out behind the wheel. after that i went home and slept for a few hours and took some cold medicine that made me SUPER chatty and weird.

then i watched greys. i screamed out loud when meredith went in the water. are you kidding me?!

also - how gnarly was that woman's face that karev found? eeeeeek.

today i went and ran some errands and met with this AMAZING graffiti artist that i think is going to be doing some work with clandestine - im so stoked about it - i cant even tell ya. we had sushi and he ordered this weird thing that i've never seen before - it was like a meatball but made with spicy tuna, seaweed and some crunchy substance. it was pretty tasty - no lie. also, the salad dressing on japanese garden salads has got to be the most amazing thing ever. anyway. after that i went home and read all these articles that i had marked to read and took notes and over all i feel like a smarter human.

one of the magazines i was going through was the Jane magazine with Mandy Moore on the cover. I'm sure a lot of you have already picked it up because it has 5 Questions with our favorite dude Peter Wentz. There is another article in it that i found really amazing though - it was on page 106 and it is the story of a woman that was abducted at age 12 and put in a rebel army in Uganda. If you have the magazine I strongly suggest you check it out and then hit up the invisible children website.

anyway ... tonight im going to party like i'm 19 and drink the very expensive bottle of red wine i bought. stoked city, usa. i've been super into taking polaroid pictures so i have to get my scanner to work so i can upload some from my trip.

my goal for the weekend is clean my room up. and to stop myself from going to the tanning salon. haha. what a mess.

hearts,

bonnie jane

ps. does buffet style sushi from a restaurant attached to a mall sound good to anyone?

okey dokey kids....

either thursday or friday the ever so limited clandestine new era fitted hat will be up for sale. we made exactly 1008 and after passing out a bunch to our friends we have about 15 left to sell to everyone... be sure to check out the clandestine store here to score yourself one.

holla.

oh em gee ... sucha good episode.

stoked for callie and george - who have become my favorite couple hands down. (for some reason now that mcdreamy and meredith are together its just not as fun or something).

even more stoked for christian and burke - i loved when she said that they could hire a wife. i loved her talks with ellis grey.

heavy tears for when ellis spoke with both the chief and meredith.

how did the free clinic get built so quickly - i dont even get it.

i hate addison - duh!

kareve is so hot.

over mcsteamy - just sayin.


the only other t.v. i've had a chance to check out this week was Studio 60 on the Sunset Strip - I thought it was a really good episode. I love those breakout moments when you realize something about a person that maybe everyone else has been telling you about for a long time but you just couldn't see it. i'm sooo into this show.

and i watched the premiere of project design. it's good - def no project runway. i love that there is a dude named goil on it though. i'm hoping this show will inspire me to finish decorating my new apartment. currently i have 8 tons of clothes all around my room in little piles because i can't figure out how i want to organize my closet. i think a trip to ikea is becoming very necessary.

after watching grey's last night i literally scurried to catch Young Love at the Knitting Factory in LA. The show was awesome - like a billion percent better then the first time i saw them. I'm pretty sure their album came out a few days ago - you might wanna go pick up a copy - it's definitely good for a few dance parties in your room.

tomorrow i'm going to see hearst castle with my cousin annette and sunday armor for sleep have a big photo shoot for their album packaging and stuffs. no football for me. i'll be sure to take loads of pics of everything. i also did some interviews with the armor dudes at the studio last week - hopefully we can get those up asap.

hearts,

bonnie jane

teeter's new band LadybiRdS posted a song on their myspace - YAHHOOOOOOO.
check it here- OMG ITS TEETER'S NEW BAND!!!
also - didja even know that tyler from GYM CLASS HEROES is also in TEETER's band?!
most sincerely, teeter sperber's #1 fan for lyfe. (aka bonnie jane)

grey's anatomy was so good last night. i mean i was a tad bummed that it was a to be continued situation, but at least we definitely have something to look forward to. also the idea of karev and addison being a couple is vomit inducing. izzy and the check was so cute/sad. she's totally going to pay for that girl's surgery, right? oh man. its disgusting how much i love this show.

there are also about 17 new mtv reality shows that i wanna see ... Dancelife is definitely the front runner. Bam's wedding thing will be funny I'm sure. The Hills looks super insane. Ehh... mayber there were only 3 and not quite 17.

also - can't wait for new studio 60.

are there any good movies to see?

This is a smokin hot new clandestine hoodie. You can only buy it on the friends or enemies tour!

a few random thoughts as I watch sponge bob at 707 in the morning.

Don't put a lot of pressure on yourself to have the best night of your life tonight - because sometimes it just doesn't happen. Give yourself some time to think about what you really want out of the next 365 days of the next year. I think when you have a super clear vision of what you are running towards you are way more likely to achieve it.

Don't drink and drive, please.

Let the people you love know how much you love them and let the people you look up to know how much you appreciate them. I've been bad at both of these things this year, real bad, but I plan on making it up to these people over the course of the next year and through out the rest of my life for forever and ever

That's all the advice I feel prepared to give - but here are a list of my favorite moments of the past year.

* Going on tour with Armor for Sleep and Alex Sarti - duh.

* Getting into 1 million trillion fights with Charlie Mark and some how always managing to get back on his good side, but only long enough for us to get into another huge fight. There's no one in the world that I like fighting with more. He's the dude that "makes me emotional". (when he shoved me in chicago is most definitely the fight that sticks in my mind the most)

* Meeting and falling head over heels in love with Hemingway.

* Seeing Armor for Sleep play on the main stage at Warped Tour.

* Flying to Las Vegas on a private plane.

* Starting a food fight and calling the manager of the restaurant several crazy names at the Hard Rock in Las Vegas with Amanda, Alex Sarti, Gabe Saporta and Whitney Arnold.

* The Clandestine fashion show - someone told me it was ghetto - but I think it was awesome. Definitely one of the best things that I've done in a long time.

* All the Travie hangs - especially when ben jorgensen and amanda and travis and I went to the Sounds of Animals fighting concert. What I remember from that night is awesome.

* Getting to see Cobra Starship for the first time - that night ruled hard.

* Bamboozle - Doug and I got kicked off the stage when Fall Out Boy was playing. Which led to a fight with Charlie. I got to hang with TK and Marie. And a stretch hummer limo took me home to Jersey City.

* Saves the Day in concert, as well as RX Bandits, Lauren Hoffman, Butch Walker...

* The Fall Out Boy concerts in Albany, NY and Columbia, MD - most insane things ever.

The best part of my year has been moving back to Los Angeles and getting to see 4 people I respect and care for a whole lot make a record that I know is going to knock a lot of people on their butts.

What I'm looking forward to this year:

* Armor for Sleep in the studio. Armor for Sleep new album. Armor for Sleep on tour forever.

* Clandestine Industries.

* Adventuring with Teeter Sperber - in March we are hoping to hit up Portland, Seattle and Vancouver!!!

* Going to Vegas once every three months until I'm dead.

* Echo Park hangs.

* Mostly I'm looking forward to seeing where the wind takes me - cause at this point in my life it could be anywhere.

xo,

bonnie jane

i wanna write a huge long love letter about how much fun i had in nyc and how my life is full of the most amazing people on the planet and how i get to do things that are the funnest and how even when i have to say goodbye to someone that i care about immensley im still the luckiest girl in the world because they were a part of my life for a lil while. i wanna say all that - but ben jorgensen is making me leave my computer to go get more coffee - so i guess - more to come....

ps. there are a few new pics from my trip - they are just me getting wasted face though.

sooo... tomorrow i am going back to nyc for a couple of days to start working on this super extra special Clandestine project... I can't wait to start giving away the details of this one ... but I fear it must wait a lil while longer until I start running my mouth.

also have you met my friend teeter? I love her SO BAYAD!!! We are thinking about going on lots of adventures together and we need help figuring out where we should go ... Can you fill us in on spots that we should be adventuring to? We would totes appreciate the help!

I'm getting my hairs cut tonight by my friend Stephanie. I'm super stoked. I wish I could cut my hair longer...

It's cloudy in Los Angeles today. It's a nice change. Good weather for doing laundry and picking up around the house.

Hope everyone's life is full super fun and exciting stuff.

hearts,

bonnie jane

where to start...

the AMA's were so super insane. i got to watch jay-z in rehearsal. it was weird/awesome. during the show i watched the episode of greys anatomy that i had bought of itunes and sat and cried in a room full of boys. im sad so for george! but he's turning into such a psycho. later that night i went with warchief and dre (someone you guys will meet on upcoming fob tours) to the santa monica pier where we had ice cream cones and took the funniest picture of all time.

thanksgiving with cobra - well - you can all just imagine how much fun was had. gabe saporta made the toast to start dinner. I sat with alex suarez to make sure that i would get to laugh all dinner - and laugh i did. after dinner my brother james and his girlfriend jaima did all the dishes - while i drank champagne with my mom and fam. then i watched grey's anatomy and cried for a super long time. what ups with that show  - i cry during EVERY episode.

on black friday i slept most of the day - at about 6pm i decided that it was time to go and hit up the mall. I drove an hour to go to the Oaks Mall - since that's where i wasted the better part of my youth. I went to hot topic and picked up all the fob dolls - that's right - I HAVE EM ALLLL. they are almost as fun as the real dudes.

then i slept for a long time. and it was nice.

the first thing monday we started practicing for the fob video. wednesday morning started WAY too early - like 4am early. and it ended late. and it was cold. but the video is going to be fucking sick im sure. wednesday night i went to see Butch Walker play a really cool, really small show. It was all acoustic and he had a bunch of friends come up and sing with him. the weirdest part of this night is that i wore my backstreet boys tshirt there and when i went back to say hello to butch one of the dudes from the backstreet boys was talking to him. I was hoping he wouldn't notice my tshirt - but unfortunately he did and announced to the room that i was in fact wearing a backstreet boys shirt. im not really sure how to describe how truly uncomfortable this situation was. you can ask dirty though - i was humiliated through and through - luckily only like 10 people got to see it. (ps. Ben Lee was one of those 10 people)

the rest of the week is a total blur. a video was made. armor for sleep came out to start making their record. and this weekend i contine the sleep marathon. except i went across the street and danced to motion city soundtrack last night. i love that band.

this week is going to prove to be quite an adventure as well i think. but for now. rest.

hearts,

bonnie jane

i think i am determined to make all my friends hate me....

the brand new cd is definitely one of the best cd's i've heard in my life. i stayed up until 8am listening to it on my ipod. I haven't listened to anything through headphones in so long - it felt like their were voices in my head - it was perfect. it sucks to know that in another few weeks this will just be one more think that i was in love with for a moment and moved on from.

"Jesus Christ"

Jesus Christ, that's a pretty face
The kind you'd find on someone I could save
If they don't put me away
Well, it'll be a miracle

Do you believe you're missing out
That everything good is happening somewhere else?
But with nobody in your bed
The night's hard to get through

And I will die all alone
And when I arrive I won't know anyone

Well Jesus Christ, I'm alone again
So what did you do those three days you were dead?
Cause this problem's gonna last more than the weekend.

Well Jesus Christ, I'm not scared to die,
I'm a little bit scared of what comes after
Do I get the gold chariot?
Do I float through the ceiling?

Do I divide and fall apart?
Cause my pride is too sly to hold back all my dark
And the ship went down in sight of land
And at the gates does Thomas ask to see my hands

I know you'll come in the night like a thief
But I've had some time alone to hold my lies inside me
I know you think that I'm someone you can trust
But I'm scared I'll get scared and I swear I'll try to nail you back up

So do you think that we could work out a sign
So I'll know it's you and that it's over so I won't even try

I know you'll come for the people like me
But we all got wood and nails
Tongue tied to a hating factory

But we all got wood and nails
Your tortured (and hanging) factory
Yeah, we all got wood and nails
Your tortured (and hanging) factory
Yeah, we all got wood and nails
And we sleep inside of this machine

what happened to gilmore girls? CHRISTOPHER?! ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! wtf... this is nonsense. I feel like a fool for giving so much of myself to a show that, FOR YEARS, was one of the highlights of my week. This shit is whack son.

things that are currently not whack:

STUDIO 60 on the Sunset Strip - I urge everyone to please go and watch this show because I fear it is about to be cancelled. You can even watch previous episodes on www.nbc.com - this show is so fully smart and awesome - I can't even stand it. I didn't really know t.v. could be this good.

Hello Kitty - pretty much anything with her cute lil face on it. This summer I have amassed quite a collection of goods - including luggage, ipod speakers, tons of stationary, a purse, etc.

the new Cobra Starship video - holy shit this thing is so funny.

Fitted caps making my hair look SO RAD. (not in that new picture - I took that thing when i was feeling all inspired at 6am - and by inspired i mean, why am i awake at 6am)

fucking summertime all year round - yesterday it was 95 degrees out in LA - boo ya

the academy is making a new record - they better never stop playing Slow Down live though.

Lastly - ur favorite record of ur life coming out on February 6th. I don't have the words to even try and explain some of the stuff that I got lucky enough to hear. I think everyone is going to fall in love all over again.

im watching laguna beach (don't judge me) and they are playing gym class heroes in the background. that's kinda fun, right?

i wish there was something really amazing and awesome that i am into right now - but there really isn't. i'm thinking about taking some college classes online just to like - do it. that's about as exciting as things get around here.

roxie was a ladybug and a princess for halloween. i also got her a party dress for the upcoming holiday season. I have to admit that i'm extra super excited about thanksgiving this year for a couple of reason:

1. it's the first time i've been home for thanksgiving in the last 5 years - WHOA

2. my nana (aka grandmother) is going to be in town to celebrate with the fam

3. Cobra Starship will also be joining me and my family this year - I know, yr life FULLY jealous. Gabe and my mom go like, WAY BACK, though and my mom was so excited that he would be hanging hard with the fam. I'll be sure to take like 1 billion pictures and post them all.

4. there's a good chance that alex sarti will be coming out too!!! he and i had thanksgiving together last year and it was one of my most favorite just cause he is one of my most favorite people on planet earth - possibly beyond that.

i'm taking pw to pick up my 12 year old brother from junior high tomorrow - i'm just trying to let the kids he goes to school with know that Frankie is not a kid to be fucked with. Best sister of the year, quite possibly!

lastly, ben jorgensen is adopting a kitten - how fucking cute is that? Just when I think I know how cute he is he goes and does something like call me and ask if i can be a reference for him to adopt a kitten!!!